10/14/22
Today is going to be sort of an exercise in virtual housecleaning. I had a cold last week, which didn’t keep me from the daily Holy Hour, but did distract me from writing. Since my office is in my room, I was able to get some office work done while tending to my health, but the beginning of the week was still taken up with some clerical catching up.
As for the blog, I do have some loose notes and scattered thoughts I put down that I’ve gone back and cleaned up into a presentable, cohesive post. At least, that was the goal.
Before we go any further, I need you to please pray for the repose of the soul of Fr. Tomasz Grzegorzewski, SDB, a member of my community who passed away suddenly yesterday. He had just returned from a vacation in his native Poland and wasn’t feeling well. Still, no one expected that the Lord would call him home so swiftly. So, please pray for the repose of his soul, the consolation of his family back home, and of the Polish community here, who loved him so much.
Fr. Tomasz truly loved life, and lived it to the fullest. He spent his whole Salesian life as a missionary in various countries in Africa, as well as stints in Ireland and New Zealand. He was looking forward to getting back on the road at some point in 2023 to continue his missionary work in a yet undetermined local. As of this writing he’s been gone a little over 12 hours, and I miss his presence already. May the angels carry him to Lord he served so faithfully.
Eternal rest grant unto him o Lord
and let perpetual light shine upon him.
May his soul and all the souls of the faithful departed, through the mercy of God, rest in peace.
AMEN
10/5/22 - Francis and Alberto
What are our riches? How do we use the riches we have? What riches are we willing to sacrifice?
Yesterday (10/4) was the feast of probably the most loved saint of the Western Church: St Francis of Assisi. Today (10/5) is the commemoration of a blessed few know of outside the Salesian family: Bl. Alberto Marvelli. Other than that they were born on the Italian peninsula, they have very little in common.
What they do have in common is a desire to surrender all to God. Francis did it as a mendicant, living a life of radical poverty in an age of new found wealth and upward mobility. Alberto did it as a young layman putting his talents as an engineer at the service of his community.
The Lord's plans are beyond us. Alberto was only 28 when he was killed in a traffic accident. He had a strong devotion to the Blessed Sacrament and was a daily communicant. He saw the connection between deep piety and serving others. He had a promising life ahead of him: he was engaged to be married and was a rising star politically in his city. He saw both marriage and the political life as paths of service, not personal gain. He is for us an example of what it means to be a Catholic politician. May his name and story be more widely known.
10/10/22
[Thomas said to him, “Master, we do not know where you are going; how can we know the way?” Jesus said to him, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.
Philip said to him, “Master, show us the Father, and that will be enough for us.” Jesus said to him, “Have I been with you for so long a time and you still do not know me, Philip? (see John 14:1-14)
I do believe, help my unbelief! (see Mk 9:14-29)
In a short time the Lord has truly done great things in my life.
Justice is getting what is due. That is a baseline. It is the minimum God wants for us. What he wishes to give us is super-abundant mercy and the blessings that flow from that.
What I want is to surrender]
Added on 10/14:
T.S. Eliot held a public reading of his poems once, and in introducing one of his older pieces he told the audience that he had no idea what he was thinking about when he wrote it years before. I only wrote the above lines less than a week ago, and at first blush I can not for the life of me remember what the good Lord was inspiring in me, if He even was.
After some reflection, what I can reconstruct is that I was feeling a bit discouraged that morning. The first two quotations come from John's gospel when Jesus tells the disciples he is going away (to be crucified) and not to worry. Of course they did. The last is from when Jesus returns to the disciples after taking Peter, James and John to witness the Transfiguration. He finds them squabbling with some scribes over the best way to exorcise a demon from a young man. When Jesus questions the faith of the boy's father, the man retorts with his proclamation of faith seeking greater strength.
When I was a young priest I went through a very deep vocational crisis. I never doubted my call to be a priest, but I wasn't sure about being a Salesian. Most people don't understand that being a member of a religious community and being a priest are two separate vocations. I wondered if going to a diocese was the right thing. But my struggles over my future in the religious life put me in danger of losing both vocations.
My answer was to seek the guidance of a spiritual director, and rededicate myself to my prayer life, which was in tatters. The crisis did pass. But I realized that I was spiritually immature, and it was effecting every aspect of my life - especially my apostolic zeal. I only came to see this after I began to take my prayer life seriously. The long lasting effect of it is that I've had a steady, consistent prayer life for many years now. Lately the Lord has called me to "up my game" by making the Holy Hour a regular part of my daily routine, rather than something special I do during Advent and Lent (maybe).
When you step into that intense light you see your defects more clearly. But that's alright. God wants us to see our short comings, not to discourage us, but to let us know where we still need to grow.
I think I was also a little down because I wasn't "feeling" as energized or alert that morning. Again, the Lord sometimes gives us energy or consolations to start a new phase of life, but then curbs our enthusiasm so we do what we are doing out of love, and not for what "we get out of it," like feeling good.
The key is simply to surrender to the Lord, and let Him lead you, whether you feel like it or not.
As for the point on justice and mercy, I'm going to let it stand, and maybe unfold it little by little over the course of these reflections.
The bottom line is that if we surrender to the Lord, live an active life of prayer, the Lord will carry us farther than we can imagine. It may not seem that way at the time, but if we pause and reflect back we often see more clearly the progress we are making year to year, if not month to month.
10/13/22
Blessed Alexandrina Maria da Costa is a stumbling block to the disciples of therapeutic religion. Not just her, but any victim soul; one who willfully takes on suffering or applies their suffering in reparation for the sins of the world. I want to be careful not to be too harsh. There are those who understand that suffering and sacrifice are unavoidable aspects of the Christian journey. But that suffering is usually explained as being a normal consequence of our “human condition.” This goes along with a contemporary aversion to the idea that reparation for sin is necessary. It begins either with a denial of Original Sin, or a denial that God the Father would actually send His only begotten Son into the world to suffer and die for us. It's all an attempt to make the faith reasonable, and it's unreasonable to believe that an all loving God would demand satisfaction for the sins of the world (if there is even such a thing as sin).
But here we have Alexandina Maria. Her feast day, October 13, coincides with the anniversary of the Miracle of the Sun at Fatima. I'm not sure this is coincidental, because she, like the seers, claimed to have received a request from Heaven for the pope to consecrate the world to the Immaculate Heart of Mary, again, as an act of reparation for sins against the Sacred Heart of Jesus.
I tread carefully here, because in the last few years there have been self proclaimed visionaries claiming to have messages from Mary or Jesus flooding the internet with speculation. (I am not now, nor have I ever been the recipient of any supernatural locutions). They've all proven to be false prophets. There is one who I do believe is sincere, who voluntarily withdrew from the scene when a major prediction he made didn't come to pass. I'm willing to give him the benefit because his prediction, as unlikely as it was when he made it, wasn't all that crazy. And time has rendered the notion of such an event not only less crazy, but even more plausible, as to made me wonder if he wasn't off by way of timing rather than substance. No, I'm not going to say what it was. I'll go as far as to say that it had nothing to do with the use of nuclear weapons, which has been on many people's minds lately.
Unlike some contemporary theologians and spiritual writers I have no problem with the idea that Jesus' death was redemptive and that we need to make reparation of our own sins and the sins of the world. We may not be called to such extreme sacrifices as Bl. Alexandrina Maria, but any small sacrifice or inconvenience we can offer up helps.
Since this post is getting long, I'll cut this off right here, continuing this, and other themes presented here, as we go along.